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May. 18th, 2006 | 10:06 am
location: The Kent-My Bedroom
mood: anxious anxious
music: Stupid Girls-Pink

Now that summer is here and I am done with classes, I may finally have a chance to keep this thing updated!! lol Right now I'm experiencing a little bit of stress....I'm not done with Psychology after all :( I'm goin to have to take another Psych class next semester thanks to Ben Dykman aka the Demon of the Psych Department!! Now I'm just waiting to see the rest of my grades, they should make me feel much better.
This summer should be very fun and exciting for me. I've got a new position at my job from last year, I'm a assistant director at Leopold Elementary School in Fitchburg. I don't get to work one on one with the kiddies anymore :( but I assist in over-seeing the entire program.....I'M SOMEONE'S BOSS!!
Other summer plans making sure that my friends realizes how much potential they have as a couple and MAKING SURE THAT THEY ARE TOGETHER BY THE END OF THE SUMMER!! lol Making sure I have enough money to do what I need/want to do!! Working out a situation and making sure that all my questions are answered!! THIS SUMMER THINGS SHALL BE ACCOMPLISHED, ENJOYED & hopefully EXCEEDED!!

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Apr. 5th, 2006 | 02:10 pm
location: Grainger Hall Copy Ctr
mood: cheerful cheerful
music: Smile by Tamia

So I skipped a couple days needed a bit of a rest. But now that I've had some time to rest it's time to speak and speak I will.....so be prepared to listen!!

So most of my life I've seen being single or wanting to be single as a bad thing. Women who were single; there must be something wrong with them.....and men who were single well they wanted to live "The Bachelor's Life". Either way it wasn't a good thing. But now that I am at an age were I am old enough to realize a lot of things, I'm wondering what's so wrong with the single life and what makes being in a relationship so perfect. How do I know that being in a relationship is what i need to make my life "complete". Maybe my life is complete just the way it is, and I don't realize it. Maybe my life is perfect just the way it is and I'm not taking advantage of it b/c I'm placing my standards on that of which I've never experienced.
I can not tell you that falling in love is the greatest feeling in the world....I'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED THAT FEELING BEFORE!! I can't say that being in love is what I need to complete me because I in fact have never been in love and if I said that then I would be dooming myself to thinkin that I'm not a whole person and I can't ever be unless I'm in a relationship.
Now I honestly have decided that love is not for me. I figure that I'm the person that people are suppose to look at and see as a person who is single and they'll be even happier that they are in a relationship with someone. In my 23 years of life I've never been on a date, gotten a gift for Valentine's Day or had a boyfriend; and unlike most people I'm not angry or bitter I'M ACCEPTING!! That this is the way things should be, you roll with the punches instead of rolling into them!! My Women's Studies professor would say I'm taking the "Path of Least Resistance"......

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Apr. 2nd, 2006 | 07:49 pm
location: The Kent My Bedroom
mood: giggly giggly
music: Watchin The Loop on FOX

Spent the day with my mom.....really haven't felt good all weekend so I missed CIC :( and I am even more convinced that I may quite possibly be in one of the most awkward situations, and I am HOPELESS!! I'm happy but HOPELESS!! lol........Because if there is one thing in the world that will keep me from doing something it's this.......dah well, so sue me

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April Fool's??????

Apr. 1st, 2006 | 05:21 pm
location: My Bedroom at The Kent
mood: thoughtful thoughtful
music: Baby It's You by JoJo

So while most people are pulling practical jokes and trickery........I want to pull some validity concepts of my own!! Not trickery; just trying to see , how well people really know me.....or how well they don't

So here it is for your guessing pleasure:
I know it's April Fool's and people tend to joke BUT today could also be a very good day to tell people the truth about things too. So at this time I will post things in my away message and allow you to decide their VALIDITY
1.Last year I became a parent and I'm passing my child off as my nephew
2.I have feelings for someone that I will never be able to tell, b/c I fear REJECTION
3.I have a job offer to be an Assistant Coordinator of Academic Programming this summer
4.I plan on changing my major to Women's Studies
5.I just became an aunt again for the fourth time
6.I'm a Jehovah's Witness

Good Luck

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Man.....it's been a long time!!

Mar. 31st, 2006 | 11:01 am
location: At Grainger Copy Ctr on my NEW Computer
mood: determined determined
music: "Rush" by Ally & AJ

There's a lot of things I could put here to let people know how life has been since I last wrote in my livejournal; but I think that would take forever just to fill you in on what has happened in my life so I'll just write what comes to my head and since I think I may suffer from certain bi-polar symptoms(all jokes aside) these comments may jump around A LOT!!

Well first off, I am in like with a guy who is younger than me; he's the same type of person as me in every way possible.....scary huh?? I like the male version of me, WHO'DA THUNK IT!! He's sweet for no odd reason, loves shoes, has the most amazing smile I ever did see and is as confused and slow as molasses in January(if you don't get that you prolly won't I guess that's one of those Southern things that has stuck with me!!) However, I am terrified to say anything and I don't think he knows anything and so nothing will ever happen cause I am scared to tell him how I feel and I have no clue how he feels. Knowing my luck he doesn't like me, so I'll get over it.....

I am absolutely sick of the greek sorority system on this campus!! Not all greeks, but some b/c of the way I have been treated.......for absolutely no reason except for the fact that I left one greek sorority in one greek council to join another in another council. I'll never hear the end of it. Whether I become a greek or not, that will be held over my head for the rest of my time at the UW and possibly longer. Why can't people just get over stuff and move on...I mean it was almost 2 yrs ago, if anything I should be the one harboring hurt and bad feelings about it; I'VE BEEN THE ONE TO DEAL WITH THE SLANDER OF CHARACTER, THREATS, CONDESCENDING(sp) STARES & RUDE REMARKS but I've gotten over it. I don't react, but I'm tried of the lies, the accusations and the belittlement I have to deal with, I'm not a greek so I have to take it.....if I were a greek, they still wouldn't respect me.It's a damn shame; BUT THAT'S LIFE!!

For whatever reason I'm not ashamed to admit to it, but I have had more alcohol in the past week, than I have in my entire life. And I didn't get drunk.....I went out on a Wednesday night stayed out til 2 in the morning; knowing I had a 9:55 the next day!! I was mixing drinks having a "good ol' time" not worried about any consequences. For once in my life I was not playing it safe.Ha....who knows how long this will last!! Prolly gonna go out tonight; being me was getting me NOWHERE guys didn't talk to me and girls didn't like me......so maybe I need to change up a lil'!!

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Dec. 15th, 2005 | 03:11 pm
mood: creative creative
music: Watchin "Emperor's New Groove"


FiNaLly!! Man if only I could explain how happy I am to say that!! But it's kind of bitter-sweet!! Because I am so afraid to see how my final grades will turn out !!

But I think everyone goes threw this at some point and it's just my time so yes I'll worry.....but I won't stress!! I'll just be stalking My UW until next semester!!

What I can say is that I am so proud of my boys, they are graduating on Sunday!! Brooksy's got a job in Milwaukee and well I don't know what RJ calls himself doing after graduation but he's getting married too!! Man I'mma be going to a lot of weddings......I guess that will make up for the "mystery wedding" that I missed!! Well everyone missed it, not just me.....

I did something that maybe I shouldn't have yesterday.....but unless the person notices; which I really think they won't it doesn't matter!! Because sometimes you need to change things SO I CHANGED SOMETHING,not that it could do harm to them or me, or that I did it to intentionally do something to them, I did it to set myself away from that person for awhile.....and if our paths cross again that's great if they don't that's great too!! I'm creating my own path here......and I'm walking down it, whether it be alone or with someone else!!

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Today's Another Day......

Dec. 14th, 2005 | 03:21 pm
mood: artistic artistic

Well I am done with my GERMAN CLASS.....Tschüss,Aufwiedersehen,kein mehr Deutsch!! So tomorrow we're having FEIERNZEIT, after having 2 exams in a row!! Neither of which I actually studied for because I was so focused on my PSYCH courses right now it's crazy!!

Academically, I'm trying to make it through the end of the semester as stress-free as possible!! I don't need anything like last semester....My German and Sociology classes should be okay, now it's just Psych that I have to worry about!! Am I nervous OF COURSE....am I stressing NOPE!!

So here it is DAY THREE of the STAND-OFF, and I think I'm doing well!! It's difficult cause I do care a lot about him!! But nonetheless, I have not IMed, called and well I never see him, so I think I'm doing it!! I refuse to play this game anymore!! You shouldn't have to make people do things, they should do them because they want to.....


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Ok...I'm back for real this time!!

Dec. 13th, 2005 | 07:33 pm
mood: mischievous mischievous
music: Welcome Back Kotter Theme

Man I have not written in here in so long!! So much has happened...good for the most part!! Definitely funny, but it's only been 2 weeks so it's nothing life altering!! Gospel Choir concert was AWESOMENESS!! But it was expected to be because that's how it is!!

My Psych 455 Professor maybe the biggest ASS in the history of ASSES!! DUMB FUCK......I have never hated anyone before in my life but right now I HATE THAT MAN!!

I think I may have accidentally guilted someone into talking to/calling me; but I didn't really want to talk to him.....luckily he called me while I was on the phone with my mom, but now I'm afraid of the awkward situation that may occur if he calls and I don't have an excuse...BOYS ARE FUNNY!!

OK so here is my goofiness of the week....

Guys are crazy...they come to me with problems, they want to talk to me about their problems, they expect me to understand their problems and they want me to forgive them for their mistakes!! WHAT AM I A PRIEST?? HAHAHA

I'm in a relationship with someone......and you're my BOO
I'm single again......and I don't know YOU
I'm sorry did we just step into an episode of THE TWILIGHT ZONE......

I think guys are funny!! And I'm happy to say they crack me up!! Keep doin what'cha do fellas.....you're makin my days a lot funnier than I ever expected them to be!!

Don't get me wrong there are some A+ guys out there, it's just that I have run into some comedic characters.....

P.S-The "Satan's Angel" thing.....I'm tired of it, actually I just think I may need a break from that person, possibly a permanent one!!

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I'm back......

Nov. 28th, 2005 | 08:50 am
mood: happy happy
music: "Something" Musiq

After not having written in here in sooooo long I'm back!! YAY ME!!
But here's to catch you up on things:
-I'm Satin's Angel(haha courtesy of JB)
-I saw Harry Potter......YAAAAAAAAY!!
-I had a 2hr discussion w/ a very important person BREAKTHRU BREAKTHRU BREAKTHRU
-I hula'ed in Hawai'i
-I got leid
-I saw my niece and 2 nephews LOVED IT LOVED IT LOVED IT!!
-I had a weird dream about some people in my life fighting for my attention, and they weren't the people I would expect them to be!!

..I can't think of anything else right now, but if I do I'll add more in another entry!!

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Wow.....what a week it has been

Nov. 17th, 2005 | 11:51 am
mood: lethargic lethargic
music: "Ordinary Morning" Sheryl Crow

I have not written in my journal in so long.....so I do a one word catch-up of my past week
Friday- dazed
Saturday- confused
Sunday- depressed
Monday- blah
Tuesday- ok
Wednesday- ??

Yeah my last week has been crappy to say the least and to add insult to injury we ended up having to post-pone our party. Something I not only put a lot of work into but was looking forward to after the hell I have experienced this semester.....and now in a matter of 24 hours G-O-N-E!! And the fact that other can be so non-chalant about it surprises me!! But then I spoke with another one of the members of my group today who hasn't put as much work in but told me she doesn't know if she can be an Interested Lady just because she can't come to the dance, was in utter shock when I told her it was canceled and why. Her surprising response: "What's the purpose of having events if a sorority or fraternity can over-rule us any and every time, we'll just lose out. I mean what's the point of even having an Interest Group." I love being in the Interest group but as much as I do I couldn't even think of an answer for her question.

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